A Love Story

After the death of a spouse you find yourself going through stuff tucked away in
closets and dark corners, underneath stuff that was being saved because one of
you thought it was important and had a sentimental value. So today I was doing
just that and came across a loose leave note book Natalie had of all her posts
she had when she had a web page. And so I'd like to share with you, two posts
made so may years ago, A LOVE STORY that never ended.

I posted this on Marine web site I used to go, Natalie coped it and put it on her
web page. 5th anniversary Sept 12, 1998
Today, five years ago, I married my wife Natalie. We have been together 10 and
married for 5 years, I have been blessed, she loves me for who I am, even when I
don't know who I am. It is said love makes the world go round, Natalie makes my
world go around. There are times I ask myself why me? this marriage is almost too
good to be true. We don't know where the future will be, but you will find us
walking into it, hand in hand, and loving each other and counting our blessings.
Loving the good times and supporting each other through the bad times. Five years
have gone by to fast. The point is, without her I am nothing, and with her, I am
everything !

Natalie post this on her web page 9/12/99 My darling Bruce, last year you really got
to me with your post. We have a great thing going on here, Honey, and I love you
more each day. You said that you did not know where the future would take us but I
do know that 11 years ago I had no future until you my wonderful friend came along
and quite literally saved my life.
You got me back to mom before she passed away and for that I cherish you. You also
gave me the chance to know my brother Dave and to better understand him.
We have been through some really rough times and yet the times I remember are the
good times, the quiet times, the ones when we were alone in our love.
We have often said we wished we could have a longer time together but when we were
younger(LOL) we would not have appreciated each other as we do now. We have both
grown together and God willing will continue to do so. I love you Bruce and will always
need you near me. You are my love my friend & my life.

                           TODAY   TOMORROW   & FOREVER  
  
    
  

The Kiss

 It's been around 38 days since I lost my wife Natalie, to some she was a mother, to others
she was a best friend, to me she was my best friend and soul mate. We were together over
twenty years, and in that time we rarely had a harsh word between us. She was always doing
something for me all the time, people would tell me how much she loved me, hell I new that,
it was no secret how we felt toward each other. Natalie had this thing she started from the
first time we started going together, lets call it Natalie's rule, we would never part for the day
without a kiss, on arriving back home a kiss, when we went to bed a kiss, even if I went to
bed before her, she'd wake me up for that kiss, and of course there was the morning kiss.
On the day she passed, she drove me to work and before I left the car as always there was
that kiss, I remember that kiss, she had on dark lipstick, I gave her a peck on the lips and
then one more and got out of the car, and that was the last time I saw her alive. A long time
ago when I met Natalie's mother she asked me to take care of her, I promised I would,
the truth is through the good and bad times we took care of each other. She always said
that she wanted to die before me, because she didn't want to be left alone without me.
Well I tell you being left here alone without her is really hard, at times the grief is almost
more then I can handle. I can remember the first time we kissed and where, and now
the last time, life as come full circle.


              

Change

Change is this slow moving thing that takes away all that once was, and relegates it to
an obscure place in time where our past history resides. Change is like a vine that slowly
creeps into every void and changes the familiar to the unfamiliar, as we try to adapt to the
new, while still holding on to the past.